Things will be different, and I'm okay with that.

I feel as though I must apologize to my Blogspot account. It's one in the morning and here I am, writing away on a very empty internet journal. I'm sorry for treating you like a booty-call: only wanting something to do with you because it is late, I can't seem to fall asleep, and you're the only one that will meet my needs at a time like this (not that I have ever made a booty-call, but I imagine that is the attitude surrounding it).

Looking at old tagged photos and videos on FB is like cleaning out my drawers and closet (something that I am going to actually NEED to do in the next month considering the circumstances). I feel like the significant mile-markers in my life can be identified when my hairstyle changes; if only I were pretentious and "hipster" enough to think of something so clever. There is no reason for sadness since photos are usually made to capture times when things did not seem so bleak. Actually, my life really isn't bleak at all at the moment; it is excellent. I just feel like when a significant change happens in my life that there is a need to go back a few miles and see how I got here.

I love the friends I have made and the memories we have created together. A part of me wants to live in the photos and videos I have been looking through. "Living in the moment" never meant more to me than it does right now.

All this randomness to say that God is renewing something in me. For some time I have been...not depressed...just something of the sort. After graduating and an influx of great news, I fell listless and needed to force myself to get out of bed everyday. It is not something I will dive into too deeply. A lot of it had to do with the fact that a major part of my life ended so abruptly and I was adjusting to it.

...but I digress...

God is renewing me still, and I am grateful. That is really all this post is about.
I'm happy, and I am not ashamed of that. Many great things are happening and I am excited.
I'm glad that I can pretend that anyone reading this is just as excited and not the least bit confused about anything.

Thank you, Blogspot journal, for allowing me my fantasy.